Friday, December 4, 2015

Bookshelf

It was welcomed with great joy...the joy of finally having a place for books,with the intention that being on display and accessible I would reach out and READ!! Pure and true intentions. Also seemed achievable. Success rate?? To be honest 3-5%
Staying true to 'morphing' it has been shifted 5 times since its arrival. Each position convincing the self-I will read more now/this place is perfect.
The room it is kept in is not very wide,10 feet I think. Standing in the middle of the room,on the same axis of the bookshelf,it is not very far. Taking into consideration 1 foot space for standing,1 foot width of the bookshelf,it would be about 3 feet away from access. Yet each time this point/position was crossed or used,the bookshelf became invisible. What is even more amusing is that 'khalaara' had successfully established its presence even there. The order of books had perfectly been displaced. Nothing was in order,it was just stashed and then piled on. There was fiction,non-fiction,magazines,more magazines,instructional books,tutorials/manuals....various kinds with hopeful intentions. Ideally there should be a shelf for each category and space was also not lacking. Other than the books there were also some 'show-pieces'-which I realise now as I'm writing is not a great idea. They had no 'matlab' to be there.But yet they were there. Serving no purpose,just as the books.
The poor thing became just a storage space in the end. And the act of reading became an after thought.
Each time a book was picked up,it was read half heartedly,partially. I am still to decipher this disease of half reading.No book I pick up,have I finished till date. Was it the lack of time?or was it this desire of sitting in a comfortable chair with a cup of chai along-which never happened!! Maybe this issue could be dealt later. But the conclusion here is that no book gets finished.It comes off the shelf,goes in the carry bag,comes out in some free time,but then gets forgotten.
And the bookshelf stands,trying to look important yet becoming just another furniture.